Economics, old stuff, hasn't changed...

"Money is a new form of slavery, and distinguishable from the old simply by the fact that it is impersonal, there is no human relation between master and slave." - Leo Tolstoy

Деньги — это новая форма рабства, которая отличается от прежней своей обезличенностью, поскольку между хозяином и рабом отсутствуют человеческие отношения.

Лев Николаевич Толстой

My new work

Acrylic paint, lacquer. such an "angry" case for the phone that raises my mood)
first try of acrylic paint.

When you can't choose anything else

Well, well. What am I up to? I feel that 3rd year of college was too full of unnecessary feelings. Now I am trying to come back to the right route. My 道
Huge amount of information and feelings came to me lately. Like second enlightenment. Whatever happens to me later - I know this is how it has to be.
Meditations, practises, rei-ki (霊気) and even more.
"Forbes", finance, business plans. Studying.
Good movies, nice books, great new people.

Bodrum, I will miss you...

This is just view in the evening, from the hotel. Bodrum itsel is much more impressing.
Bar street in Beijing sucks comparing to Gumbet...
7 days in Turkey, Bodrum.
Heaven...
I don't even want to write about it, or think about it. Just know that I have this week in my life...


Here are few gifs.

Ы or Qiezi (in Chinese 茄子)

Dream big, change at least something!

I feel frustration.
In fact - I don't know what I feel. I feel nothing. Or disapppointment, maybe?
Like I've been walking on this road for many, many, many years and haven't found what I've been looking for.

I need to believe in something, but I don't know - what it should be? Love, power, wealth, health, ascetism, children, harmony, impact, change?

Happiness is when your possibilites meet your wants, right? Shoot, now my wants don't meet my abilities. Or something else.

I was looking for love - there is none of it around me, only hormones.

I was looking for the truth - but only books have it, not real life.

I was looking for prosperity - there is only illusion of it.

And the last I was looking for - is harmony. Dreaming big and living close to the nature. But nature is silent and people are deaf.

Becoming vegetarian. Speaking to people. Looking for something more...

Photosession #3 in my life

Saturday...

First - spaghetti with chicken and vegs:
Вначале - спагетти с курочкой и овощами:

Then - appetizer of shrimp and spicy chili:
Затем - закуска из креветок и острым перцем чили:

Ну а вместо десертика - мой уже излюбленный этой весной - фреш. Я довольно)
And istead of the dessert - my favourite fresh juice. =) I am satisfied.

Seth Godin inspired

Nobody has the answers.
Nobody is listening to you.
Nobody is looking out for your interests.
Nobody will lower your taxes.
Nobody will fix the education system.
Nobody will make us energy independent.
Nobody will cut government waste.
Nobody will clean up the environment.
Nobody will tell the truth.
Nobody will avoid conflicts of interest.
Nobody understands farm subsidies.
Nobody will spend your tax dollars wisely.
Nobody feels your pain.
Nobody wants to give peace a chance.
Nobody predicted the Iraq War would be a disaster.
Nobody expected the levees to fail.
Nobody warned that the housing bubble would collapse.
Nobody will reform Wall Street.
Nobody will stand up for what’s right.
Nobody will be your voice.
Nobody will tell you what the others won’t.
Nobody has a handle on this.
Nobody, but you, that is.

Never forget, a small group of people can change the world.


No one else ever has. 
(Micah Sifry)

Chinese Spring Festival...

is coming!
We will celebrate it on Monday, 31st of January.
What is the BEST about this - Jefferey from Yichang IS STILL writing to me! And Stella too.

People are coming and leaving, but I always value those - who try to keep in touch. Is it difficult to write a short message in facebook or at least answer the letter? I neer understood those who never answer the letter, like they just were born to receive them. =)

Jeffery, Stella, happy Chinese Spring Festival!!!
I wish you the best.

Egypt - the place to think about nothing

Marsa Alam - is not even a town. It has airport - and then hotels at the seaside. And nothing. Sand, stones, sea, sky. Nothing else. I chose this place, because I needed no people and I was eager to swim in the sea at least once in left 2010 year!





Egypt inspires me. It's the place where you want to come back. It's my second time in this country, and I am pretty sure - not the last. It makes feel every girl - as the most beautiful and the most desired.






I wanted loneliness for my 3 essays and just orientation in my future life. I desired fresh ideas. Mediation and free cocktails. Of course, I wasn't alone - I found friends and got enough attention from the boys (mostly men!shoot...). Isn't it a dream? I met New Year and Christmas first time seeing the sea and breathing dry and sweet air.



I got some ideas, but wrote essays at the last moment in Ukraine. Nevertheless I gained energy and taste of life - this is more important after all. AND! Finally, I got rid of my ex-bofriend. From now on - I don't care about this part of my life. And I will never connect memories of Egypt with this person. No more.