So here is my laudation to Mari and just gossips from the beginning of my trip:
"1.07.10
I'm starting to open my eyes to many things.
Maria and I betted a watermelon on "winning" two nicest boys - Henry and Kuba. The same evening (the day before yesterday) we've been chatting with her till 5 o'clock in the morning: Laughing, discussing, making our own "third project" here and finally crying after reminding each other the death of our folks...
But yesterday night my enthusiasm already went low. Nothing doing, I am ignored with some cues so in the evening we've been walking under the open and finally starry sky only together with Jakub, Sean and Mari. We lit the Chinese lantern up, watched people dancing in the square and children skating some special Chinese skate . Mari even danced something between rhumba and samba together with Chinese girl. She's been learning Latin, so it was quite nice to watch her finding common language with that girl only with the help of their bodies. Everyone was watching and laughing with warmth.
Mari - is a lit bit capricious girl, spoiled and not tidy at times. Basically this was my first impression of her. Then I just realised that if she wants something - then she is not always ready to meet you half-way. (Sorry to everybody else. But I will always remember how we discussed egoism with her. And how she said: Being just selfish and being selfish by means of somebody else - is different. Everybody is selfish, but when you start be happy by someone else's cost - that's no good. Why I tell this? I believe she never built her happiness on the basis of someone's sorrow - 28.08.10) For instance, she can't eat spicy food - then she goes out and buys only fruits. So in fact she's been eating fruit for most of her meals.) She can go shopping on her own if nobody else wants that, get lost during her adventure, then find some nice English-speaking Chinese and be helped to find the way out. (Or as we could see later - go to another huge city without knowing language alone, hurt leg, heal it and be able to stay in tune).
Today when we had breakfast at one Chinese restaurant, there was that baby girl, who started crying. And she cried as if she knew the all tribulation of our whole world, as if she cried for the whole Chinese nation's grief. Her mother was silent and only once told her to be quiet, staying patient and as if she didn't even notice that desperate shout. Well, maybe the mother actually didn't want her daughterto stop shedding tears over Chinese nation.)
Mari dared to say:"I can stop it. I can" and made way to the baby. My first thought - "shoot, it's not her business". But I was even excited to see what happenes next. Mari came to the girl, sat down to see her and in sweet charming voice started to calm her down. The baby аудд silent at once. But Mari kept sitting there and just talking in English with that girl. It seems she really enjoyed that. Everyone appreciated her action and complimented her when Mari came back to our table.
She is interesting. And weak - notably weak, and robust, and leader, and organisator. She's almost the youngest among us, but with deep inner world. I was convinced about that after one case: she gor offended by the phrase I said, but instead of just keeping offence without letting me know about it - she told me everything. So we could explain each other our views, and I realised my mistake and was happy to explain her everything. So we ended discussion in a warm understanding way. I guess, I am lucky to have her here. Even though she acts so chaotically...
Also she said she is amased by my straightforwardness. She says I often tell something she completely agrees on and in fact she has the same thoughts - but she would NEVER say it out loud. I guess, sometimes it's great, sometimes it's a disaster.)
(But isn't it the way to find the friends? You could let people make fun of you - if they don't understand what you are speaking about, but at the same time you could find at least one person who will tell you - heck, yeah! I think the same! ... This is what I believe in now, actually ALWAYS believed: Never say what others want - but YOU don't think. Perhaps, try not agressive way to express your idea. But still - never betray your own believess. It won't make you better for sure. I must sound corn. Nevertheless, when life experience remind you some lesson - just repeat it.)
Repetitio est mater studiorum
This is almost everything I wrote in my LJ that day.
When I found it today - I realised that nothing actually changed in my atittude towards Mari since the beginning of the project. But what about everybody ELSE in my EYD team...They taught me to give more than 5 minutes to gauge every new personality. In fact, I should give everybody a lifetime so they would have a chance to overpersuade me in anything. And make second, third and so on judgement. Or not making judgement at all. But is it possible?
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